T R U S T

Th word ' trust ' is such a bigbigbig word huh ?
as you all can see, mother & father didn't trust me like before. everything i do all they thought was lie, i know i'm a liar to them right ? you all know how it felt when our OWN mother didn't trust as like before. yeaa, my mother didn't trust me like before & i'm extremly down now. everything change, everything is not like before. i wish everything was like before where i could see the giggles, smiles, shouting happyly. haaaaaish )': i wish i could get back those times. all became like this because of my ownself. i HOPELESS & USELESS, i know i've been repeating it way to many times right ? but it true right ? )':

I DONT WANT TO GO REAL FATHER HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT LOVE HIM LIKE HOW I LOVE MY MOTHER & FATHER!!!!! EVERYONE DONT TRUST ME ANYMORE!!! I'M JUST A BIGBIGBIG LIAAAAR!!! MOTHER WONT REGERT WHEN I'M GONE, SHE WILL HAPPY WHEN I'M GONE!!!!!! HAAAISH )': I REALLYREALLYREALL DONT WANT TO GO REAL FATHER HOUSE!!! I WISH I'M NOT LIVING IN THIS WORLD!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! -.-

I HATE MY OWNSELF, I HATE MYSLEF, I HATE WHAT I'M DOING NOW, I HATE ME FOR BEING A LIAR, I HATE ME FOR LYING TO MOTHER & FATHER, I HATE ME FOR MAKING MYSELF GET KICK OUT FROM MY OWN MOTHER, I HATE EVERYTHING THAT I DO !!!!!!!!!!!

I DONT HAVE ANY CHANCE NOW,I'M USELESS & HOPELESS, I'VE LIED TOO MANY TIMES, I WISH EVERYTHING IS FINE LIKE BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )':